A little background

Do you ever hear a song on the radio and it just hits you?
Tears stream silently down your cheek and spill onto your lap.
Alot of songs do this to me... but one that stands out from the rest is Van Morrisons "These Are The Days"
Sometimes when I am having a bad day, I'll put it on and picture this song playing in the backround in a montage of my life. In an ideal world this song would be my theme...a soundtrack of sorts.I sit quietly and watch the memories play out in my head...as if I were watching a movie.

The look on Kevins face when the kids were born.

The proudness on my face in photographs taken at their baptisms and birthday parties.

I see Kevin chasing them around the backyard with a squirt gun, or teaching Kaleb how to play golf, Tossing Bevy in the pool.

Beverly and I making cupcakes covered in frosting.

Kaleb getting on the school bus for the first time.

Bentley showing his little brother how to play a new game, or reading him a book.

Coming home from a late night at work and finding the kids and Kevin smushed in our bed...fast asleep.

These memories are a small handful of what gets me through the rough spots. Two and a half weeks from now Kevin and I will be married... After almost 9 years together and two children later. Finally.
It has been a rough road, and if someone less strong had been traveling this road of ours, they would have given up ages ago. But we haven't. Sure we split up SEVERAL times, but I think we both knew that this is where we ultimatly wanted to be...who we wanted to be ... what we wanted to be...husband & wife.
When you're planning a wedding people come out of the woodwork with advice. Don't listen.
They will tell you what they think the secret of a happy marriage is...Don't take it.
It's their secret, their trick. You need to come up with one of your own.
Our secret is a simple one...love.
If you love someone enough, anything they do you can forgive.And if they love you enough in return, they will never give you reason to need forgiveness.
Our relationship emboides this completely. Of course there are days where I am so angry I could walk away...but I could never walk away forever, and thats the important part.
If you love someone the way I love Kevin you would understand that he is part of who I am...like an added extension of my body. I am not whole without him.